Honestly I could type a 500 page book linking together all of the feelings and situations that have made me feel utterly insane over the past year or so. But to save time I'll just summarize it.

The fact that something has had to always exist for anything to exist drives me insane. The universe had to have been created by something for example, god or the big bang. The big bang was and explosion after all matter collapsed in on itself. Or God created the world/solar system/galaxy. What created God? What created the creator of God? Or what created all the matter that collapsed and exploded to form the big bang?

Time travel. I've always had the bad habit of over thinking everything I do, AFTER I FUCKING MAKE A DECISION! Ranging from losing my best female friend because I grew strong feelings for her and asked her out, to snapping and mumbling some words that changed the relationship between me and my whole family. I've always found my mind wandering and thinking of every possibility, that comes to mind.

The universe as A whole, and death. Knowing that long after I die the universe will continue to proceed, expand, and who knows what is incomprehensible to me. Knowing that the molecules that make up my body, my being, the cells that hold my knowledge!! will be dead, dissassembled and re distributed amongst the universe is scary to me.

Death. Whether god exists or not I'm screwed. I know for a fact I'm going to silly goose(if one exists), because I'm was raised as a Christian and know the sins I have done. I also know that if I die and there is no afterlife, I will either be sitting in blackness for all of eternity in the mystery that is the human mind or I will not exist, not being able to think or do anything. I will simply end.

EXISTENCE. And lastly the biggest role in my insanity, knowing if anything around me exists. If life is all a 'simulation' played out by god in each of our minds to prove whether or not we are worthy of entering heaven or silly goose.

OR that I am merely dreaming and the only reason I can't fly around and all that jazz is because I don't know for sure that I am dreaming. and the fact that inception a fucking movie portrayed half the shit I was thinking of for years, drives me INSANE!!

OR THE BIGGEST MYSTERY I HAVE FACED!! I am the god of my own personal universe. Nothing, absolutely nothing that has happened to me has truely blown my mind. At times it feels as if everything is focused on me. Or as if my mind can know exactly what is going to happen before it does so.

So if a god/satan/any being with knowledge that can give me answers does exist hear me. If none does exist, either the world revolves around me, or I am absolutely nothing compared to the rest of the universe.

Mt must think I'm fucking crazy. But who cares, so do I.

chill out mang

Okay, that is possibly the weirdest post I have ever read.

My question is :

Before the Big Bang, what was there? It was nothing right? What colour is nothing? Black or White? But if it was a colour, then wouldn't it be something? It couldn't be see through, because there was nothing on the other side. When was the universe created? How do people know? What if we are INSIDE a black hole?

Very confusing.

Man are you high

By delving into such matters that man was not meant to know you will only drive yourself further towards insanity. The overall lesson of any HP Lovecraft story, and they be wise words.

marijuana is a silly goose of a tool and has good results.

2 things I wanna ask your poor broken mind



Why is that such a horrible thing to contemplate? You aren't going to care too much when it finally happens because - hey, you no-longer exist.



Don't you find it hard to acknowledge an invisible sky tyrant when you feel that life boils down to that?

I use to think all of those things and still do at a constant, but I gave myself a drive to find out them all. I realized I woild never be able to find out the answers to your questions in my own lifetime. So I started to think again and now im on a full mission for immortality. Its not impossible and It gives you something real to go insane over. Equations, chemical and mathmatical, are easier to understand than life questions. The death thing is what really got me. I dont know what happens when I die (strongly non religious) and I wont be ready 'til I find out. Take a load off your brain and think hard about somehting easyer to understand. If this is what you think then you are destined to answer those questions or find the answers to them. So sit back and think of ways you can go about finding them.

What is this like the matrix I dont even

Don't try to understand

How peculiar...

Meh, that was a fairly nice emo rant outlaying questions that every human being since the dawn of time has asked, yet somehow thinking your are unique or 'insane' for asking them. But whatever floats your boat.

And another thing:



What colour is nothing? What a stupid question, its nothing, ofcourse it has no colour. No one knows when the universe was created, but we know that time, space and matter was created by the big bang 13.7 billion years ago. We know this by using many techniques, which I can't be arsed to explain, but I'm sure google will give you a general idea.

That is a meaningless question. The Big Bang theory is widely misunderstood. It is not saying that all matter and energy was compacted into a singularity which exploded outwards into space, it's saying that the entire universe was compacted. Space and time, matter and energy, was all compacted into a single point which then exploded outwards. It's a bit counter-intuitive since it involves thinking of an inside without an outside, but that's how it is.

It's like saying "What was Kodos, who was born in 1987, doing in the year 1812?" The answer is simple: Nothing. He did not exist yet.

That is, of course, assuming a few things. If the big bang was the result of a big crunch...

But yeah, generally speaking it's best to look at it that way. It's a meaningless question. You cannot have before the big bang, because there was no time.


Black is the absence of color. Black is the term you want. Calling it a color is a bit dishonest, I agree. It's a color in the way atheism is a religion and "not collecting stamps" is a hobby.


"Created" implies a creator. There is no god. That said, current estimates place the age of matter within our universe to be roughly 13-15 billion years old.
If certain theories pan out, however, the universe would be infinite age.


Number of ways. For one thing the speed of light. Light travels at a set speed, and lightyears measure distance, not time. The distance light travels within a year. Ergo if we can see an object that is 13 billion light years away, then we know that this object must be 13 billion years old, otherwise its light would not yet have reached us.

There are other methods too, spectrograph analysis of light, radioactive decay, etc etc. I'm giving you very simplified answers to very complex questions.


Good question. We might be. But as of right now that's a meaningless thing to ask because it's a non-falsifiable statement.

It always breaks my head thinking about how space is ever expanding and infinite...but it makes me wander how it was created and what forces are at work. This kinda stuff makes me wish I would wake up in the Matrix or something.